Fearless

This morning I kinda woke up with the Monday blues. I didn't feel like getting my week started. I didn't feel like getting out of bed and heading to work.

So I stayed in bed for a few minutes as I procrastinated until the very last possible moment to start this new week. Believe you me, I have this skill mastered.

Sitting there I found myself looking at the quote I have on the wall across from my bed.

It's by Taylor Swift. It reminded me that there is now one week until her new album "Red" comes out. That made me a little excited. And then I thought about the quote itself: Be fearless.

Though this quote is "technically" about love, it reminds me that sometimes all you have to do to "be fearless" is to get out of bed in the morning.

Sure there are the days where I feel fearless. I feel that I can conquer the world. I have motivation and energy to get started on the dozens of things on my plate every day. I have hope and faith that I can be the person I want to be and accomplish anything and everything I want to accomplish. Those are the days where I feel fearless...but this quote reminded me that on days like today are when I have to actually be fearless.

It's the days where I have to muster whatever strength I have to get up and repeat the daily tasks. It's the days where I don't think there is any way that I can do anything of the things I'm supposed to...or don't want to do them. It's the days where I feel completely inadequate of what I face. It's the days where I have to rely on routine and regular procedure to get through the day. It's those days that I'm truly fearless. Despite my insecurities, despite my trials and fears, despite the unknown...I keep moving on. I get up. I get dressed. I go and do. Those are the days where I truly NEED to be fearless. Today is one such day. Tomorrow might be another. But I have to keep going. I have to believe that I'll find my internal motivation again. I have to believe that there are better things ahead. And there are. That I know.

To me, “FEARLESS” is not the absence of fear. It’s not being completely unafraid. To me, FEARLESS is having fears. FEARLESS is having doubts. Lots of them. To me, FEARLESS is living in spite of those things that scare you to death. FEARLESS is falling madly in love again, even though you’ve been hurt before. FEARLESS is walking into your freshmen year of high school at fifteen. FEARLESS is getting back up and fighting for what you want over and over again… even though every time you’ve tried before, you’ve lost. It’s FEARLESS to have faith that someday things will change. FEARLESS is having the courage to say goodbye to someone who only hurts you, even if you can’t breathe without them. I think it’s FEARLESS to fall for your best friend, even though he’s in love with someone else. And when someone apologizes to you enough times for things they’ll never stop doing, I think it’s FEARLESS to stop believing them. It’s FEARLESS to say “you’re NOT sorry”, and walk away. I think loving someone despite what people think is FEARLESS. I think allowing yourself to cry on the bathroom floor is FEARLESS. Letting go is FEARLESS. Then, moving on and being alright…That’sFEARLESS too. But no matter what love throws at you, you have to believe in it. You have to believe in love stories and prince charmings and happily ever after.